THE COOLEST CHICKS...

Last night was the send off dinner for our LA Marathon and SD RnR Marathoners...LA runs this coming Monday and San Diego on the 31st. One more send off for the Seattle RnR Marathon (June 27th), and the Spring/Summer season is in the bag! (And although I'm not a participant for LA, I suspect I'll do part of it with our teammates as we cheer them on, as well as doing SD and Seattle.)

Last night was also the start of our Fall team's social season, having had kickoff last weekend and first practice this coming weekend.

And the women above...both teams. Julie, Audrey and Becka are strong and dynamic and funny. They are passionate and interesting and diverse. When the second party ended...it was the four of us: conversation went from the lunacy of this marathon addiction to the insanity of radiation and chemo, to the pictures sent if on a certain dating website (other hand, Julie). We also discussed fundraising, men, cancer and moms...a very well rounded evening.

I'm pretty sure one of the funniest parts of the evening was about 11:30 when I mentioned to Becka that I was tired (we rode together). We got up to leave and Audrey yelled at us, "SIT DOWN, I'M NOT DONE." I'm so gonna have to use that one of these days!

I probably would not have met these women, if it were not for my Team in Training family... I feel so blessed to have them, and for my sweet friend Bucket who sucked me into this world of training and fundraising and fun!

Julie and Audrey and Becka... I love calling you my friends. I love that you are my family. You inspire me!
xo

FINALLY FRIDAY

This is a Mother's Day photo. My nephew surprised his mama and came home...my little baby was on good behavior. Ian will be 20 in 11 days...there are no words for the adventure that has brought us here.

Last night Bucket and I went for ice cream, but not just ice cream...she had a banana split and I had a warm brownie sundae...OMG! Total comfort food, and total comfort conversation.

Sitting and talking to Bucket reminded me about being true to myself...the me that needs friends, but not the people who make me sad.

So today I set myself free, once again. This one doesn't feel good... it feels a little sad and empty. But I know when to say when and instead of drawing it out too long...I'm doing it now, before it becomes BAD!!!

In search of the one who is not only great in all ways, but can pick up a phone or send a text...just to touch base. The one who is available more then once every week or so.

I want to be a priority in someone's life other then my own...not the only priority, just A priority.

A SELFISH POSTING...

This one is for me. Not because it's important to document but because if I get it out of my head perhaps I'll sleep tonight.

Tomorrow afternoon I see the Onc, and I am having the most fucked up thoughts in my head. Usually I'm pretty good, but not so much this time. And I hate that about me... about the witches from whence I came.

So, if I write it down it's supposed to go away, right? Or ease my...WHATEVER! Where do I go if I can't escape my head? If I can't run from the squirrels who are running on the wheel that won't let my brain stop? Well, I'm thinking this is a great night to catch up on dvr and clean house.

I had to write this down so I could see how stupid I'm being...