ALL I DO...

This could be a general rant, or perhaps directed: you decide.

Surprisingly, I am too giving. I give and I do and I do and I do...and while it is indeed the case that everything isn't always 50/50, I would like back more then 5% once every 2-3 months. I must go back to that recent question...am I an embarrassment? I actually think that today, I give!

I am a pretty awesome woman! Just ask me; I'll tell ya! And if there is any doubt, I'll freaking tell you again!

I'VE THOUGHT THIS THROUGH...

and although Bucket is worried, it's a wait and see game! If the blood test comes up clear for cancer, which it will, I have the serious questions...I have a marathon to do! I can't chance the dr. having to slice me open because he can't do this surgery laproscopically...have I said FUDGE yet?

I've never had an ovarian cyst...that I know of. Perhaps this one has been there a long time, or not. I don't know much about them, but I have many questions and would love straight answers! I'm tired of peeps without MD after their name telling me everything they know about...whatever my schtick of the moment is...and BTW: if you know someone who DIED of an ovarian cyst, keep it to yourself!

When did I become the cancer girl? Oh yeah, on April 25th. It is truly amazing how life swings.

I have a "HISTORY"...

How do I know this, you ask? Well, because the GYN I just saw said to me, "With your history, I would remove the cyst in your ovary...it's large and we can't be too careful...now go for an Ovarian Cancer screening and call my nurse on Thursday to schedule surgery." He also said that he was planning to do it laproscopically, but may have to open me up it he runs into any problems. FUDGE! FUDGE! FUDGE! And if my foul language insulted you, ya probably don't belong reading me!

Just Another Day...

Today we walked 10 miles. I hope you'll check out my Nike Marathon blog. Yes, I am a little nuts!

I recently saw Juls, who looks amazing and is glowing like that light from the Luxor! And Crystle, who has lots of good stuff coming soon (check out www.magisticalmemories.com)!

Summer is peaceful and a reminder to take it easy. I hope you're all doing just that.

Please take a moment to say prayers for all in need...I've learned of 2 more in the past 24 hours and firmly believe positive energy will clear the proper path.

Love and hugs.

CRAZY WITH THE HEAT?

Is that a reasonable explanation as to why I am going to walk the Nike Women's Marathon on October 19th in San Francisco? Or that Team in Training (TiT) raises $$ for leukemia and lymphoma research and that 75% of the money I raise goes directly to research? Perhaps it's the rush I get from doing something I never thought was in my future...and certainly NOT, as I lay in the hospital 7 1/2 months ago! Is it that cancer hit me 2 months ago? Maybe that my darling friend Janice is a success story, or that my darling Tante is just starting her battle.

I have no explanation, just a compulsion to be successful! And that I'll be doing this with Melinda and with Bucket makes it so much sweeter.

I will be 46 years old and controlling my life...sometimes I love being me! I am so content.