Friday, November 16, 2007

Spiraling Out of Control

Here I am sucking down beer #4, darvocet #2 and soma # who-can-remember and thinking:

There I was, driving home at the end of the day looking forward to a little peace, and I got "hit"...right in my comfort zone. Why was Al from my orthopedic surgeon's office calling me at 5:30pm on a Friday?

So the answer is this: I get two surgeries...one on Monday, November 26th and one on Tuesday, November 27th. Once through the front...and once through the back. So seriously, I'll come out of the anesthesia on Monday and realize how painful it is...and then realize that I get it on the flip side the next day...excuse my language (FUCK).

And the best...it's Friday and I see my doctor on Wednesday...and have to wait until then for answers.

I...hate relying on others. I... firmly believe that I can take care of myself, but for this moment I am not feeling terribly confident. I... am freaking out! I...am wondering if they have a Starbucks in the hospital (adding that to the list of doctor questions). I...am seriously pissed off! I...am going to miss the previews of the Scarlet Lime kits (though Christy is an angel and will send me the payment link before surgery...xoxo to you). I...am going to miss my darling friend's birthdays (I love you Colleen and Crystle). I... refuse to admit I am completely terrified to not be in control. I...am definitely freaking out!

Thank you for listening...you are the peeps I adore! xo

3 comments:

xo Colleen (Chi-Girl) said...

Holy crap - isn't that a double banger!!!??? I'm really sorry, Susie, my friend...please know that you will probably (hopefully) be so out of it the day after surgery that you won't know you're having another one...and I will help in any/every way possible. You're not good at asking for help, but now's the time to do it. So the boys will have to get used to some new girls in their house! Okay, I need to know what hospital, my friend! And I'll take care of Scarlet Lime for you -- I'll have a totally fun time doing it for you!!! (And maybe I'll add a little bit in for me - mwahahaha!) Seriously now, whatever you need...I'd love to bake you sweets, my weirdo-sweet-hating-friend, but can pick anything savory up for you. My car stops at delis, markets, you name it! Hugs and love always! xo

Jule said...

Bab-a-la....I am here for anything you need or want. I love ya and can't wait til you are good to play again.
Huggs

Unknown said...

I'm not listening.... LOL. You know if you need anything we are here for you.

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